So, 2016 resolutions. It’s that time of year again (actually, a month ago, but) when we create expectations about the year ahead and promise ourselves that we will be better this time. You can choose to look at resolutions like that or you can try to see them as incentive to actually do something, to actually be better this year.
Even though I like to think about new years and resolutions through the second point of view, I do admit I can create resolutions that I know I won’t be able to follow, but I just can’t help myself. So, this time, I tried ~tried~ to keep them more manageable so I don’t be so disappointed in December when I look back and see that I haven’t done a thing.
1. Put things back where they belong
Okay, pretty self explanatory. But I figured out (I actually already knew this, but ignored it) that the biggest reason my room gets messy is the fact that I take something and never put it back in its place. It just ends up somewhere in my room where I’ll never find it again. So putting things back where they belong will not only keep my room more organized for a longer time, but also help me find things more easily.
2. Apply “less is more” to more areas in life
People say “less is more” in the most various contexts, but I want to apply this to every (okay, not every) context. From Facebook friends, to clothing items, to worrying or planning. “Less is more” is something I want to internalize and I believe it will help me live a happier and simpler life (I don’t know why I’m so into the ‘clean’ and simple look, but yeah).
3. Read
Yes, read. Just read. I wasn’t able to read a lot in 2015 and reading is something I love doing and that I miss when I don’t do it. I feel like it is something I need in order to not alienate myself and freak out all the time. I don’t know, I just love being able to spend hours imagining different worlds, different people, different lives. It’s refreshing and humanizing, and I hope to do it a lot more than last year.
4. Keep in touch with my high school friends
I graduated in the end of 2015 (the Brazilian school year goes from January to December, instead of September to June) and I left the school I’ve been enrolled in for the last 11 years. I started going to that school when I started 1st grade, and now it’s over. I still can’t properly wrap my head around that, but I need to realize I need to move on. I love that school with all my mind and heart, and I’ll miss it. Gosh, I miss it already. But, most of all, I’ll miss all my friends. Okay, I know I’ll keep in touch with a dozen of them, but what about the others 240 in my year? How will it be not seeing them every single day? I admit it’ll be nice not seeing some of them, but, for the majority, I’ll miss them. So, yeah. I just really want to keep in touch with them.
5. Be healthy (not necessarily lose weight)
I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t love my body. I’m in the process of accepting it though. I really want to deconstruct the way I think to the point where I can realize that wanting to be thin was imposed over me by society. This resolution is not about losing weight. It is about being healthy, even if it means not losing – or even gaining – weight. I want to not be out of breath for running three blocks and not being able to eat certain food because my metabolism can’t take it. I want to treat my body right, so it can be good for me back.
6. Meditate
I want to meditate at least once a week. I feel like that’s a good step towards meditating everyday, fact I know I wouldn’t be able to follow.
7. Make time for art
And with that I mean make time for artistic activities instead of just doing homework, working or even reading. I want to just sit and let my mind do what it wants in the form it wants, from writing to drawing to dancing.
8. Enjoy the present
I don’t know if I’ll be able to do this, but I do hope I am. I can be someone who plans a lot for the future and ends up worrying about it a lot too. I want to enjoy the right now more, just focus on what’s happening at the moment. I want to live the present instead of living what I imagine the future should be like.
9. See the glass as half full, not half empty
Be more positive and force myself to see the good side in every situation. ‘Fake it until you make it’ or whatever the saying is like.
10. Be myself
Oh, big abstract one. While I was writing my essays, I wrote one about gaining confidence and how much that was important to me. I used to restrain myself from doing what I wanted and being who I was because I was worried about what people would think of me. I did come an incredible long way, but there’s still work to do. And I want to be each time more like myself in every situation.
11. Let myself feel pain
2015 was a stressful year (I talked about it here). Many times I was on the edge of bursting into tears, but I held the crying back because I needed to be strong, or at least feel strong. Little did I know crying has nothing to do with being weak. Sometimes you just need to feel the pain and embrace it in order to get over it. Just cry if you need to. I want to believe this and allow myself to cry and feel pain without feeling bad about it.
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These are my resolutions for 2016. I hope to be able to follow them, since I feel they’ll be good to me. We shall see.
Love,
Dani.